Lies...they're just lies!

Well, i just went to Maison again yesterday night. Yes, there again. Well, it was freaking empty at around 11pm-12am but then luckily the crowd started to come in at around 12-1am? Loads of chun chicks at the podium once again. One of my friend whom i just me yesterday asked me to accompany him to the podium and so i did. Well, i started to dance and i saw a few nice sweet chicks on the podium. Thought of giving myself a gut to go and ask her to dance with be but unfortunately i wasn't brave enough to do so.

Pffffftttt... such a loser. Well, i notice this girl where she looks cute too and she was standing next to my friend. I ask my friend to go over and dance with her but that stupid fela doesn't want. He said he wanted to dance with the girl on the podium. -_-" What a waste! I wanted to dance with her but since she's dancing there and my friend was just next to her, i just gave my friend a chance to do so. How would i know that he refuse to dance with her? Aiks....

Well, i saw loads of chinese and english ed chicks on the podium and apparently these english ed chicks just wouldn't go for a pure chinese guy unless you do look like a banana, or maybe caucasian, or a malay, indian, mix, etc and not pure chinese. I saw a few cute and sweet girls up on the podium but they just won't want to look at you. How sad. Pffffftttt.....

Well, sweat alot yesterday night and then as i went back to my seat. I bumped into my ex. I can't imagine i could bump into here yesterday night and she was sitting right next to me. Well, i wasn't happy yesterday night after bumping into here and also some other problems. Apparently last time we broke up is due to one of the reason that she said she wanted to focused on her career and also her studies. That's why she sacrifices her love. This is what she told me. And last time i accidentally deleted a picture of us where i kiss her on her cheeks and vice-versa. So, a week before her birthday i told her whether i could take back the same picture as i just want to keep it as a memory and she said "No! We're friends now and friends couldn't do the these things anymore."

So, yesterday this guy kissed her on her cheeks and when it's time to leave the club, that guy was holding here hands walking out together. Could friends do so? So, i went up and talked to her and she told me that they were just friends. I told her that i saw you holding his hands and he even kissed you. So, i ask her back could i kiss you then? Her reaction was a shock that i said these things and she even asked me "Are you drunk?" HELL NO!!! I'm not drunk and i'm sober k!!! If he was just your "normal" friend, why would allow him to hold your hands while leaving the club and kissed you on the cheeks too? Now ain't that funny? Last time I ask her whether i could i take back the same picture and she said NO, "because friends can't do so! And now you allow him to do such things on you? Pfffftttt.... "What a big fucking lie! It's not that you can't have another new boyfriend after me but it's just that i can't accept the fact that you lied to me, using such lousy reasons to break up with me. What career what shit la, yada yada yada... FUCK IT LA! It's all lies!!! There are some lies which she told me and i went and ask her best friend and apparently the story is different. I won't mention what lies she came out with.

I regretted of me going after you and seriously, i made a wrong move. I should not have done so on Valentine's day!!! I'm really a dumbfuck! Damn it! Being loyal isn't good at all to me right now cause i've been very loyal to both my ex-es (including her) and look what being loyal got me into? Now, i just want to be a playboy, a playa!!! FUCK LOYAL!!!

Will call her later just to settle this stuff or should i say all the things she used to say to me. Let's hear some explanation and i won't easily put my trust on you anymore!

Bleeding

I was browsing thru my backup folder just now and I realize that I forgot to backup one of the folder where inside contains lots of music and I now can’t even remember what music were inside that folder. FUCK man, I was fucking sad man, damn! It’s like part of me was ripped away. I love music so much that I can’t fucking miss a song. Furthermore, some of the songs inside that folder took me quite some time to search for them. The saddest part was I browse thru each and every folder in my HD and I just left out that bloody folder. Last time I did backup that folder but then this time I really forget to do so to this folder. T_T ARGH….!!! How fucking careless I am!!! Sigh… sad sad sad…
“MUSIC IS LIFE”

And oh… Christmas is just around the corner. I wonder do I have any plans for Christmas eve? Sigh, feel like celebrating Christmas eve and new year eve with someone special this year but it seems everything isn’t going the way I wanted to. So, what the heck! Anyway, I will go and party hard with my crazy friends. Hahaha…

Woah, another year has almost gone by by just another 2weeks plus and there we welcome the new year. Hopefully everything goes on smoothly next year and please let me get the hell out of Malaysia by March. I just can’t wait to get my arse off here and start a new life abroad. I really hope I could rush for the March intake. If not I have to wait till June then only I could go over there. Argh. Someone please pray for me so I can go overseas to further my studies and if possible, get a job there and won’t come back for the next 5-10 years. All I need to do now is to pass my TOEFL and wee… here I come , US!!! It’s so sad that I need to wait for like almost half a year then only I could go abroad. I seriously just can’t wait. Daaayyyyummmm!!! Hahaha…

Tired...

Well, i just got home from PC fair, been working from yesterday and also today. Yesterday there aren't much people as today but today has been really a heck day. Seriously. Been working from morning till night, non stop. Well, luckily i ate my breakfast before going to work because i know i will not have the time to take my lunch today since today is a Saturday and there will be loads of people flocking into PC Fair to get the stuff they wanted to. Well, i work and work and work until i dun even have the time to take my lunch. And guess what, when i finally get the time to go and have my lunch and i thought i was around 3pm+ but as i look at my watch, it's 5.30pm! i'm like "What the fuck??? It's 5.30pm? Well, thank you and there goes my lunch and welcome mr. dinner!" -_-" And yesterday i had gastric due to having lunch late at 3+ without taking my breakfast. Damn man! Aih, I'm freaking tired rite now and yesterday i had a stupid dream and that dream was so insane or should i say packed, full of stuffs inside my dream. I kept dreaming about the number series of the printer models for Canon and also the price of it, their specs, their function, yada yada yada and the list goes on... =S sick wey that dream...!
INSANE!!! IT'S TOTALY INSANE... i hope i won't dream of it later tonight. >.<"

Fucking Unlucky Saturday

Supposingly i should be doinf TOEFL test rite now but i'm not! That is because my name registered in the TOEFL site and my passport is different. The only different thing in the TOEFL site is i had my house/christian name Brian on it where as my passport doesn't have! FUCK!!! But i had an INTERNATIONAL STUDENT ID with my name Brian on it, my signature and also a photograph of me but they still refuse to let me take the damn test because my passport is my primary identification where as my Student ID is secondary. Note: I said "INTERNATIONAL" which means anywhere in this bloody world the card is able to recognize in this bloody planet and yet that test centre still don't allow me to take the test. FUCK man! i seriously need to take this bloody test A.S.A.P. if not i wont be able to enter the march Intake. Furthermore, there aren't any test date in Subang or KL from 7.12.07 till 24.02.08. This means that i can't enter the March intake. The only test centre left for me to take the test is IN Penang!!! it's Penang!!! That is the only place where i could take my bloody test! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK... i'll be just cursing for the whole damn FUCKING DAY!!! ARGH!!!! im so so fucking pissed right now, can't sit for exam, can't go US on MARCH!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!