Well, i just came back from midvalley. Went and watch The Simpsons with a friend of mine. The Simpsons was hilarious, it really laugh my a*s off wey... seriously.. it's so damn ridiculous but it's really really nice. Should watch it but the storyline was quite lame la. Overall, it's still not a too good or a too bad movie. At least i know that it's better than Harry Potter!
Well, after the movie i fetch my friend home and then meet up with my another friend who's staying around her place. So, just drop by at her place and ask her out for a drink. But it ended quite early as she's very sleepy and tired but i've told her already that if she's tired and all, i'll just meet up with her some other time. Geez.. i just don't get it! Anyway, it's happy to see her again but in the mean time it's also sad as well to see her again as there's still some remaining stuff in me. I just can't seem to get over with it tho it's been like almost 4-5 months? Gosh... help me.. anyone?
Besides, i'm really really used to like touch her face, hair or maybe kacau her nose or someting like that but things just aren't the same as last time. She told me she doesn't like people to do that to her as it might cause misunderstood. She told me she's fine with it bu some other girls just doesn't like it. Maybe so does she. Just hinting me to stop that doing from now on. SIGH~~~somehow i've used to do that to her... time just can't be rewind. I still miss her...
SHIT!!! FOR GOD'S SAKE, WHAT THE FCUK IS WRONG WITH ME??? STOP IT BRIAN!!
SOMEHOW FEELINGS ARE JUST SO HARD TO CONTROL, AIN'T THAT SO?
Besides, i dreamt of her few days ago and i recall that we're walking down on the street and we're very close to each other and somehow i took something from her hand and my hand accidentally touches her soft small hands and somehow i wanted to let go but then i was curious at the same time why she holds my hand and never wanted to let go as we're only friends? And then i woke up...-_-" it once happened in reality but it won't happen again twice in reality. I can assure that.
Well, i thought it's going to rain soon as i saw lightning and all and i'm driving all alone in the street of emptiness. Furthermore, my car's playlist is playing some nice relaxing chillout ambient music esp when it's playing late night alumni's rainy days, i just saw the lightning flashing here and there. DAMN! And at that time my mood wasn't really good at all, it just drop all in a sudden. Maybe it's due to that incident just now...
HOW??? How can i get rid of these feelings? It's killing and torturing and me. Always haunted by pass memories. Well, that's the same o' Brian. Always loyal to love, i hate myself!
I feeling very emo now. Need some emo songs, maybe my friend could help me with that as she has loads of emo songs. I'll just ask her to send some to me tomorrow.
3 comments:
Maybe the reason why you can't get over her is because you choose to hold on to the memories the both of you once shared. You are choosing not to let go because you're silently hoping that maybe, just maybe one day she'd come back to you... which explains the dreams you had.
Sometimes dreams show your personal hidden longings deep inside.
Plus, it would help you to get rid of those feelings by not choosing to find her. How can you expect to forget her when you yourself wanted to find her. You should know that you would be reminded of the past you both had if you were to see her.
It's good to be loyal in love...but REALISTIC as well. Keep that in mind :) In the meantime, what works for me after a heartbreak is to keep myself busy if I want to get over someone. Maybe you should occupy yourself and keep yourself busy too. In time, you'll realize how easy it is to actually move on as new memories take place over the old ones.
My man, Brian.. Why love? No one can be told what love really is. You have to see it for yourself. You don't see it with your eyes. You see it with your heart. All hearts are different compared to one and another. So, don't be loyal to love. Be loyal to yourself.
One of these fine days I'll take you out with my gfs. Lets go and have fun. Then I'll show you how I can get over someone so quickly.
Note: Drugs not involved. Most likely will involve alcohol. You are my supplier dude..
vic: it's true la, i somehow just wish i cud be together with her again but i know it's impossible and i'm quite stubborn in love as well, sigh... i tried so many things but somehow i just can't forget her... aiyayaya....!
abes: yes abes, why love? they say love can bring happiness? well, to me, i realize in my love life, it always has a sad and painful ending, maybe i should be loyal to myself and not love, like what you said.
Sure sure, bring me out with your other girl friends and i can learn from you how you could do it, you're the expert there dude.. hahaha. Just gimme a buzz when you're free and i won't take any drugs in my entire life! no worries..
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